As everybody knows, now I live in Melbourne, Australia. It's already been two months and a week for me to be here.

Unfortunately, I haven't experienced as many people or exciting things as I had expected when I was in South Korea. I do two jobs: Nando's worker and a cleaning job. Since last week, I've gotten strongly bored with the way of life I live now.

Looking back from the arrival date, Early days were not too far from what I expected except for the frustration I didn't feel before get to here. But as the days go, everything has gone different from what I looked forward to. 

Firstly I started to live with Korean guys. The full-of-spirit attitude was changed too easily within just one week. As I failed to successfully get contacted or keep fluent conversation with local people, I couldn't help searching on the Korean community websites, which ends finding a great share flat. Yes, the place I live is great. It's not too cold given Victorian weather, and the guys I live with are fine, friendly, and even neat! But I lost the chance to use English as my 1st living language. This was the fisrt step I ceased to use English.

However just after a few days, I began to work as a salesperson. Our product was car cleaner - basically it was, but wa also able to be used on other materials including mirror, stainless steal, etc -. I had to speak English. Oh not just speaking, I had to 'persuade' people to buy our stuff and, more seriously, to earn money. But things weren't like I had heard of before starting the work. I couldn't stand the 'STATUS ANXIETY' because there was NO basic wage. Finally I quitted the job. Seen from today, those only one week doing that work was the greatest opportunity for me to improve my English.

After that, I started to jobs, which I mentioned above, from almost same day. My days have filled with just 'work'. Even worse, I've had too less chances to use and improve my English. At Nando's, for it is a fast-paced restaruant, we don't need to talk much. Fastness is the most important in here. There is no much need for speaking, but just doing quickly. Furthermore, the cleaning job at night has made a strong barrier to meet people, which can directly help me improve English, and study or practice English on my own way.

I think my English hasn't improved much given that I have lived in here already two months. So I decided to use The Language intentionally in my daily things. That's why I wrote this clumsy note. I will succeed in English.

If you read all the lines, you may feel weird that the tile of this note and the body's contend don't match with each other. Yes I know, and below is the real thing I wanted to say.

Why should we practice English? What on earth made us to do? I cannot know exactly, and I assume that neither can all of you. While having this question, I'm writing an English note, and trying to even think in English.

I am a really really contradictory person. I have a critical view to THE LANGUAGE. At the same time, I want to speak fluent English, and make it my actual second language. I want Korean people to be proud of our culture and language, but my major in Uni is 'English Literature'. I want to write beatiful Korean sentences and find beauty in many Korean literature, but now I write this note in English.

Anyway I may keep speaking English in this country, and not be able to avoid the need to practice English.

I want to make my thought and mind simple, just simple.